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Gut Instinct

2012-01-30T23:27:00.000-08:00

You know when you have a feeling about something and you don't want it to be true, but then you find out that it is, and you don't really know how to react at that moment, but you try your best to be positive, affirming, and encouraging.

Well yeah... today I encountered one of those moments. LOL! I know some of you guys have asked me why I'm being so cryptic with some of my posts and its cus I'm a lady and I blog, but will NOT reveal the inner most parts of my heart to just anyone... bahahahaha~. BUT I still wanted to vent.

*Sigh... LOL! One of those days yahnoo what I mean?!?!? ;p

Gut Instincts... sometimes they are wrong... not gonna lie... like I'll confront people and be totally OFF, but then sometimes... man they are so ON! I wonder how we have this 6th sense at times...

Anywho... that's all. Done with my random rambling and being all cryptic on yah... bahahhahaa... TOTALLY looking forward to going to Chicago this weekend and spending time with old friends. Perfect timing... (=

#ilovetraveling BUT eeepppp~ on the airplane ride alone O_o #genuinefear

The Vow

2012-01-28T01:59:00.000-08:00

It's seriously similar to the story of us and Jesus and how we forget him and he fights for us to know him RIGHT?!?! We had a discussion about this movie in my bible study group ;p.

So many new relationships, engagements, weddings, and VDAY is around the corner. WOW~ I love LOVE. Bahahahahaha~

I can't wait to watch this movie... woot woot~ U watch too! ;p

Box of tissues, I think imma actually spend $ and get some popcorn ;p, and friends/bible study group most likely. YIPPEE? SAD? lol~~ hmm... company is good... but this is a date movie... LOL!

=====> click it, u know u want too ;p THE VOW TRAILER

#basedonatruestory <3

Recruit the way...

2012-01-22T13:08:00.000-08:00

THE MARINES DO IT

"My son Jim joined the Marines when he was a young man. I was proud of him, but I also noticed the Marines didn't sweeten their sales pitch for Jim or anybody else. Hard work, long hours, tough duty, extreme situations, and more were what they offered. All of this to find "a few good men" who wanted to be part of a great team.

Of course, this is a very sound screening device for attracting the right kind of person--the individual eager to pay the necessary price to become a member of that kind of organization.

Those who applied for membership, who wanted to be part of the team, were not looking for the easy way. There knew it would be tough going and accepted it, even welcomed it.

Unintentionally, I had been doing something similar in my own recruiting. No sweet talk or big promises. Playing time, trophies, or title were never, ever mentioned. The one big promise I made to candidates was that if they came to UCLA and paid attention, they'd get a very good education.

Over the years I think my approach screened out many individuals who may have been ill-suited for my system. This saved everybody a lot of time. In its own way, my approach had some resemblance to that of the Marine Corps." - J. Wooden

I read this today and of course thought of you David. I only hear of bits and pieces of what it is to live as a Marine and to serve our country and I can only imagine (and would only like too, cus I wouldn't make it as a Marine =), all the sacrifice, dedication, and hard work you and your fellow Marines put into fighting for our rights and freedom.

Thank You David Lee for fighting for us and I'm really proud of who God has made you to be and the man he is shaping you to become. He is our sovereign God. We aren't perfect, but its awesome to see you strive and try daily to live for our Father as his child first and as one of the few and the proud.

사랑한다... 제니누나. 화이팅!!! (=

The Good Samaritan

2012-01-18T22:25:00.000-08:00

Today in Seattle we had about 7-14 inches of snow in various parts of the western part of Washington state. I woke up and looked outside to see my yard that was covered in my favorite color as snow continued to trickle down and the sun began to shine a bit around 7 this morning. I jumped out of bed to grab a bite of a cookie ;P, and began to think of how COLD it was outside and how the homeless people in Seattle are dealing with this weather.

I had the urge to text or email people that I knew in the church, but stopped feeling a bit foolish for some reason. So, I made my morning breakfast that I'm currently in love with... cereal, bananas, and TOASTED COCONUTS. I LOVE coconuts right now, so I eat it daily and with whatever tastes good with it ;P. Turned on the news and munched on my delish breakfast to hear that shelters in Seattle where opening up places for the homeless to stay warm and some have even refused to leave their locations, but the option was open for them. Phewww I thought, but in the back of my mind I still worried about those that I have talked too, especially one lady and her boyfriend that I've gotten to know over the past month. O_o

Then I decided to jump in my car for a ride and adventure (thats another story) and see what my new AWD car can do in this snow. I was driving and I passed a man who was wanting a ride. He was stumbling and my heart sank yet again. Should I stop? Should I go? I'm scared cus hes a man and I don't know him. Dude, if only I was a guy? If only I had a guy in my car with me. Thoughts began to rush through my mind as I passed the poor guy.

Then the Parable of the Good Samaritan came to mind:

On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?” He answered, ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.” “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live. But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?” In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’ “Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers? ”The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.” Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.” -Luke 10:25-37

Love God and love your neighbor is first commandment and the guy I passed was my neighbor. These days, after taking part in the the homeless outreach and watching the news I feel week and paralyzed at times as to how much God can use my life to really help these people who are in such need. I mean of course prayer and loving on them when I see them. But the necessities of daily life, I feel so weak. I decided to take the month of Jan. off of in doing this ministry because I feel so overwhelmed emotionally with the ministry and just my transition and personal "issues", but yeah... seeing this man today walking, needing, asking, and just driving by... I didn't know what else to do... One of the few times that I wished I was a DUDE. There is so much NEED OUT THERE! and many are dying daily who do NOT know Christ. It's like my heart is torn and divided at times.

But yes, so after my "adventure" I arrived back to a home w/o POWER! A tree had fallen on the wires and caused a power outage, so no power and water. It only lasted about 1.5 hours, but I HATED it. I really dislike being cold more than being hungry, and yeah... How do the homeless out there survive in such harsh conditions being cold and hungry... man... God... what can we/I do as believers in a world with so much need...

#HOWCANWELOVEOURNEIGHBOR

Stranger

2012-01-16T22:39:00.000-08:00

I've always found it interesting and sad when I know someone well and then for whatever reason they are a complete stranger and I don't know anything about them. I mean sometimes I understand why people "can't" talk, but nevertheless it's still really sad to me.

Lately, I've been getting to know so many people and honestly, its nice, but I really miss friends that I already know. People that know me well where I don't have to go through the "lets get to know each other" stage, where I can trust them and vice versa and we already know each others quirks and whatnot. People may "perceive" me as out going... but when you really get to know me, you'll know that I enjoy quality over quantity for most things in life. This including "friends" =). And I don't open up very easily. So when I DO, I really really REALLY dislike broken relationships. Poopers! O_o Why can't we just all live in harmony... bahahaha~ jkjk, but yeah.

I'm thankful for the friends I know and keep in contact with. And wishing the best for those I don't talk to anymore and missing everyone in general.

#sometimesimemo (=

Happy 53rd Daddy! (=

2012-01-10T22:42:00.000-08:00

My daddy is ONLY 53 yo. WOW~ He's so young, I've known him for 28 years (going on 29 soon)... Like Whoaa~

So I put 5 red candles and 3 blue ones on his birthday "cake"... and this is his response.

Daddy: Jennifer, how many candles are there?
Me: Duh... 53 daddy.
Daddy: No, really how many?
Me: Fine... 8, but let's be creative... lol~ just go with it... 53 will burn the house down.
Daddy: Oh, so you didn't put 8 on there on purpose?
Me: I did... cus you're 53, and I explained... blah blah, not thinking much of it.
Daddy: Oh... (pause)... i see.
Me: WHY?
Daddy: It was 8 years ago that my mom died on my birthday. I thought that's why you put 8 on there. Did u remember?
Me: Dangit... I remember that grandma passed away on your birthday, but I didn't realize it had already been 8 years. O_o

As I look back... I'm like... oh yes yes... 8 years ago was the last birthday I spent with my father, cus I had always been away on his actually birthday after that. And I remember that day because I saw my father have tears in his eyes as he shared the news to me.

Two lessons I was reminded of today:
1. My dad is such an internal thinker, and he's not very emotional, but he does have thoughts that I am so unaware of at times. Sad ones too... I have never seen my daddy cry... so I forget sometimes that he has sorrow, hurts, and thoughts that he isn't always expressing.
2. Time flies by (I can't believe it's been 8 years since my grandma passed, and since I last spent my father's birthday with him)... I know time flies... but every time an event occurs, I am reminded again and again (like daily) that time goes quickly~

#makeeachdaycount
#lovethosearoundyou

Happy Birthday Daddy! I love you Lots! <3

CACOPHONY

2012-01-09T21:42:00.000-08:00

The cacophony of music, media, and voices of people are so DISTRACTING sometimes, that it's hard for me to hear the voice of God in my life. Daily I am reminded to seek after the Lord and his still small voice that can so easily be drowned out if I allow it too.

#dailywechose

i miss isaiah AND ~

2012-01-05T22:40:00.000-08:00

One of the cutest kids I KNOW! It's not just because I've seen him when he was first born with a huge head and arms and legs w/o elbows or knees showing. Or even because we traveled from MI to TX together. He is just a cutie because he has a cute face, but also because he has a gentle heart, a slur when he talks, and I just love hugging him!

Who couldn't love this cheesy smile and only he can get away with it! (=

And look at his drool! He seriously had to wear like 5-10 different bibs a day cus they would get soaked... bahahahaha~

Ehehehehe~ I love this little guy and I've been missing him mucho lately! But yes yes... along with missing him, I've been thinking about his parents. My old pastor and pastors wife and how blessed I was to have them in my life while living in Austin. I really miss having the spiritual parents who not only looked out for the welfare of me as a person, but for my spiritual health as well.

Don't get me wrong... I LOVE MY FAMILY. And my parents are great. But their view of Christianity and the way it's lived out is SOOOO different from my perspective in life and they definitely don't ask about my spiritual well being.

So~ I'm reminded of two things:
1. I really need to keep showing the love of Christ to my father, so hopefully, maybe one day he will become saved. He's a great man with a big heart and good morals... just not Christ. O_o
2. Meeting a man whos life is centered on Christ is so important, so that my future family and children will be blessed with parents who live and love the Lord with all their hearts, soul, mind, and strength. Or strive to at least... cus I'll be the first to admit, I'm definitely not the greatest at it. But I try (=.

#thankgoodnessforgrace

Showers and Gummies.

2011-12-30T22:39:00.000-08:00

Did u know that I love being in the water? Therefore, I love taking showers, swimming, being near bodies of water...

Growing up in Cali with a swimming pool, ice cream, and late night Korean BBQs after swimming are some of the fondest as well as the majority of my memories during my childhood years from 6 months to about 7 yo (=.

So yes... I LOVE the water.

So on that note, one quirky thing that I bet no one knows about that I LOVE doing is showering for a long time with a mouth full of gummies. Bahahahaha~ and it can't be any type of sweet item, it has to be a type of gummy.

Lately, so much is on my mind and I feel like I'm taking life too seriously, so I wanted to blog about something random cus I did it today. Christmas colored Swedish fish = P.

#lifeslittlejoys

EVERY DAY.

2011-12-27T11:05:00.000-08:00

This morning I planned to wake up to work out... but ahahaha~ that hasn't been going so well these days, cus I guess I'm just not motivated. =P And after eating 2 slices of pizza, an orange, and a kit-kat bar... muahahaha... I decided to call the tire company to see what was going on with my flat tire needing to be ordered.

Unfortunately, the tire has been discontinued, so I'll need to order 4 new tires when only one is flat (LOL... seriously cars are my enemy this year!) BUT on the flip side, because the others are only 1 year old, Goodyear has decided to give me $100 credit to the other three tires and 80% credit towards the new flat. Matthew (the guy I met yesterday to discuss my options) was super nice in searching for me and getting a shipment in today, so that I can be on my way out of the place by tonight with 4 new tires because I will only get credit if its a Goodyear tire and they don't have any in stock at their place right now. Seriously... people can be so helpful... and I think I run into a good number of people who really care. =)

But yeah... then I started to read and catch up on news letters, emails from people, etc... and was getting super excited reading about all the amazing ways in which the sisters I know are sharing the love of Christ around the world AND then I got onto FB and saw a post from an old friend sharing about a guy my age who took his life on Christmas day. This Korean guy that I knew in church many years ago (not too well, but I still knew him), he took his own life. Why? How? WAE?

TEARSSSSSSS~ TEARRSSS~ TEAARRRSSS~ the reality of sadness, depression, loss of hope...

"People can live about forty days without food, about three days without water, about eight minutes without air... but only for one second without hope."

People dying around me due to unforeseen circumstances, people getting sick from different illnesses has become real to me in the past years, but now the reality of people I know taking their own lives, having depression, feeling hopeless is becoming even more real. :(

This morning, I think I went through at least 8 different emotions... wow~ and all of these things bring me back to LIFE.

How precious life is, how we have only ONE, and we only need one when we find and really live out our purpose for the glory of God. But what does that purpose look like for me/us individually?

...

External Processor

2011-12-25T22:29:00.000-08:00

Okay, so today was Christmas and it was a good day. I had to depend on my new bible study group and be vulnerable and dependent on getting a ride in the morning (and boy was it hard... LOL... cus although I click with them and will be there for them... it takes more time and trust for me to be OPEN and let myself depend on others with the chance of being hurt and/or disappointed in them).

So yes... after that, I got to Seattle to pass out food/gifts/clothing, but ended up helping a dentist do exams. I only gave him the mirror, passed out the goodies (toothpaste, toothbrush, mouth rinse), but it felt SO good to interact with the dentist/patients and talk about dental stuff again. LOL~ I love my profession and I can't wait to get back into work.

Lastly, in the midst of interacting with the homeless (seeing joyful people, grumpy people, some who were drunk, people who were hurting), I began to think. To think about the need in the world, think about the news and the bombings in Africa and how people died on Christmas day, about how important family/good friends are who will REALLY be there for you not just with words, but actions to back them up, to think about being loved and how that looks, God and his ways, purpose in life, other "situations" that I'm learning and thinking through, people and their behavior...

And then... I just wanted to talk. LOL~ I was sitting at home, trying to process it and I just wanted to talk it out with a close friend. Someone I trust who will be there for me and genuinely care to listen. And after I did, I felt better. The situation didn't change, the problems/thoughts still exist, but just talking about them out loud made it better.

I know there are different seasons for different things and right now and maybe always, I'll be an external processor... ( =.

Thanks Friend! You're Great! Seriously!

christmas, new years, and what's to come.

2011-12-20T22:08:00.000-08:00

Man... it's only 5 days til Christmas and I haven't even gone shopping yet. I'm not sure if it's cus I don't have a job #nomoneytospend, or I'm just not in the Holiday spirit. Beats me... but yes yes... I decided to blog this evening because I've been chatting with a few people to plan events and sending out emails, getting things organized, thinking about the week, reading different articles, and then I pause and think about how I'm at home lounging around and this is such a different season in my life. I canNOT remember doing this in the past 7.5 years of ALWAYS being on the go. Always having a jam packed schedule from early in the morning til late at night and feeling so exhausted.

It's such a different season in my life... and I'm loving it. But working would be nice too...

Anywho... as I'm reflecting upon next year 2012 (cus its only 11 days away), there are so many amazing events coming up:
1. Jan is the month for our churches first retreat for the members (I'm becoming more involved and I'm so thankful that God has brought me to this church).
2. Feb has my dearest Ruthy's bridal shower/bachelorette party... w00t w00t!
3. April 1st is her big wedding day! Yaya!
4. I hope to fly out to Austin in May for their graduation.
5. I'll finally have a car again.

And amazing things that may come up:
1. Flying out to NY for a visit once and for all!
2. Getting a position as a hygienist
3. OoooooOOoOoo~ and maybe I'll be dating? muahahahaha~

But yes, life is good and I'm really thankful for this season that I am in and excited to see all that God has in store for 2012... I have a feeling it's going to be an interesting one.

#yayaforrandomblogging.

...to be

2011-11-29T22:27:00.000-08:00

I'm not what I ought to be;

Not what I want to be;

Not what I am going to be;

But I'm thankful I am not what I used to be.

As a perfectionist this quote really stood out to me because more than the end goal of always doing or being the right person... it's about the process of changing, growing, transforming, TRYING to be that person that I believe God has created me to be. And each day is a process...

This quote is by John Wooden, a famous basketball player and coach. I started reading this book because while watching the MI/OH football game this past Saturday (where we WON... woot woot~ GO BLUE! = )... my friend told me about how he shook Mr. Wooden's hand and how it was one of the best experiences of his life! I laughed at him, but then he told me a little about Mr. Wooden's life and of course he chose to tell me about the romantic side of this coach.

Mr. Wooden passed away in 2010 and his wife passed 12 years earlier. Mr. Wooden hand wrote a letter to his wife EVERY DAY for the 12 years that his wife had been gone. WOW! YEP! I was hooked to read and hear more about this guy after that story... LOL! That is dedication, commitment, true LOVE! Dannngggg yo... he didn't just want to be with a woman... he wanted to be with HIS woman!! WOW... my heart is a melting... bahahahaha~

As I read this book I see that he strives to demonstrate the kind of character, leadership, and commitment not just to his wife, but to the people around him and how this was passed down from his own father.

So yes... I'm reading one of his books on the lessons of leadership and leaders and its been quite good, and this is one of the quotes that stood out to me.

But I'm thankful I am not what I used to be.

WORD!

Growing ↑

2011-11-19T10:55:00.000-08:00

I would say that I've never disliked getting older. Every stage of life has something exciting and new to experience and getting older has sooooOOOo many perks. It's also inevitable, so what can u do but enjoy right? Or maybe I say this now cus I haven't hit 60? :p

I dunno~

But yes, with the recent events that have occurred, I've realized three things:

1. I've been experiencing a lot of 1st timers lately and been reminded more and more that life still has so many more first time experiences that are to come. Of course I know some like getting married, having kiddos, aging in general... ahahaha, but many more that I cannot necessarily expect or try and plan out.

2. I've always been a feeler. I go by what I feel, what my heart tells me is RIghT? : p but lately as I have been trying to make some decisions, I haven't been able to make them just on my feelings... O_ o Otherwise my life would currently look a little different. I have to think about them, how it may possibly play out, the repercussions of my actions, what I believe God is wanting me to do, how other people may feel, etc. And man oh man... with some of these choices... It's been and still is a BATTLE... battle within... You have NO IDEA... gerrrrrrr~

3. For the first time... I'm like... man... I liked being that kid that didn't have to think so much... ahahaha... the jenny that just went with her heart... *sigh.
*on a side note... lol... because I'm late bloomer with some things... I think I used to live like this until more recently... ahahahahahahahahhahaaaaaaaaaa~

Just my recent thoughts.

Something MORE.

2011-11-14T20:37:00.000-08:00

Below are three quotes that I took from another page.

Have you ever felt that there must be something more to life? Have you sensed an emptiness within your soul? The truth is that money, possessions, prestige, power and people cannot fulfill that deeper hunger we all have.

C.S. Lewis wrote, “Creatures are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exists. A baby feels hunger: well, there is such a thing as food. A duckling wants to swim: well, there is such a thing as water. Men feel sexual desire: well there is such a thing as sex. If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world. If none of my earthly pleasures satisfy it, that does not prove that the universe is a fraud. Probably earthly pleasures were never meant to satisfy it, but only to arouse it, to suggest the real thing.”

Two weeks ago, the pastor preached on the human soul and our desires. He gave scenarios about people trying to find security/satisfaction/love/acceptance in their looks, success, wealth, power, people, and how in the end we are never fully satisfied. Of course momentarily, temporary satisfaction will be there... but thats the issue... it doesn't last, but we have this longing and desire for it too.

Blaise Pascal, the French philosopher and mathematician, wrote, “Within each human being there is a God-shaped void.”

Hmm...

The 4 C's

2011-11-12T14:25:00.000-08:00

Christian, Character, Conflict-resolution, Chemistry.

I may as well add to the C's and say that my transition to WA has been CRAZY! lol.
Yes I'm corny = D.

But yes, as I have been transitioning into this new location, I've been thinking and praying about so many different things in my life. And at this point because its only been about one month since I arrived back from my last trip to Cali, things are slowly settling down, but nothing is concrete.

I haven't found a job, still no car, still no community, no apt up north, car accident situation is still messy, my neck is still healing, no man (lol, have to say this cus of all the pressure around me : ), still searching for my future direction. But for sure slowly, doors are beginning to open in all of these areas and I'm thankful for this season in my life.

I say I'm thankful because I am most of the time, but of course transitions in general take time (I have a good friend to remind me of this when I get anxious and impatient).

So~ the 4C's. I'm at the age where my moms friends/relatives ask why I'm not dating, how people tell me that I NEED to get married, where conversations in general lead to dating questions. And I'm also realizing as a single, female, that I'm not in high school where I can be buddy, buddy with a guy, but that sometimes, there's MORE.

It's an interesting stage of life for me and yeah... I'm wrestling with the 4 C's. When I talk to some Christians they are open to dating people who are open to the faith, but who aren't in a relationship with God YET and others who are not open at all; does the person have good character, are they trustworthy, do they say what they mean, are they mature enough to handle a relationship where it isn't always butterflies; can the two communicate well especially during conflicts because people communicate differently; and then of course do the two have good chemistry.

Chemistry... i actually tried reading articles about this because it fascinates me... what makes two people have chemistry? is it their pheromones? is it their humor? is it their values? looks? Some people naturally have good chemistry... but why? : D

I still believe more than anything else, that relationships are amazing, but that in the end commitment is true love and it's what keeps a relationship going. Commitment to love the other person, serve them, cherish them, be selfless, work through the tough times... cus they will come = ).

I heard this quote the other week: I'm not saying it'll be perfect... I'm saying you're the person I want to spend the rest of my life WITH! AWESOME no?!? ( =

<3

Sovereignty.

2011-10-31T00:46:00.000-07:00

7.5 years ago, I was getting ready to move to Ann Arbor, MI for school and I wanted with all my heart to find a church community where I could grow in my walk with the Lord and find solid sisters and brothers in my life who shared the same vision and mission.

My insurance company lady mentioned a guy who went to MI for school and my mom happened to be an acquaintance of his mom. Through this connection God provided exactly what I was praying for.

Fast forwarding to today, I move back to the place in which I left before MI. Having the same desire to connect with a community that loves God with all their hearts, a family in which we can share the love of Christ with each other as well as others around us, and continue growing in my walk with God.

Again... God is providing.

I went to visit a church today and also stayed after to hear about their vision and mission in their membership class. It's crazy cus I've been searching and being proactive in trying to find a place and BAM, w/o my own effort He connects me with an old member of the church back in MI who now lives in Seattle.

And although I didn't sign the membership cus I want to check out their bible study group and also take time to pray before committing. I am once again blown away and reminded that yes, God is good, He is sovereign of every and all situations and He is the author of my life.

Thanks God!

Fearless

2011-08-19T11:50:00.000-07:00

Why are you fearful, O you of little faith?

- Matthew 8:26

Chapter 3 starts off describing a boy and his outgoing, do it all personality; followed by a downward spiral of addiction to alcohol for 4 decades; to the last two years of his life where he found some inner resolve to mend his life, family, and marriage.

Awaking at 4 a.m. with chest pains, he was quickly rushed to the hospital on an ambulance and his family planned to meet him there.

But he wasn't able to make it to the hospital...

He was gone.

But in the midst of taking his last breathes, he found inner strength to relay one final message...

"His hand was resting on the top of his thigh with the two center fingers folded in and the thumb extended, the universal sign-language symbol for "I love you."'

I read this a few days ago, in a book I'm reading by Max Lucado about life. After coming across this part of the book I could relate to the author in how he described himself trying to imagine what his brother must have felt in those last moments of his life.

"I've tried to envision the final moments of my brother's earthly life: racing down a Texas highway in an ambulance through an inky night, paramedics buzzing around him, his heart weakening within him. Struggling for each breath, at some point he realized only a few remained. But rather than panic, he quarried some courage.

Perhaps you could use some. An ambulance isn't the only ride that demands valor. You may be not be down to your final heartbeat, but you may be down to your last paycheck, solution, or thimble of faith. Each sunrise seems to bring fresh reasons for fear."

Max Lucado then goes on to write about fear and the different, but many situations in which fear takes hold and occupies the heart. How it is oversized, rude, and unwilling to share the heart with happiness. And how it makes so much noise and takes up so much room, but it does little good. How fear corrodes our confidence in God's goodness.

Then he goes on to talk about FAITH, COURAGE and how life would be if our default reaction to threats were FAITH! And how it is possible to have faith when we place our trust, hope, and dependence on Christ. Look at Jesus' track record! When fear takes over faith it creates a spiritual amnesia, dulls our memory, and causes us to forget what Jesus has done and how good God is.

Don't let fear shape our lives and have safety become our God. "The worship of safety emasculates greatness."

Promises of God and truths to live by:

So don't be afraid. You are worth much more than many sparrows. - Matthew 10:31 NCV

Take courage, son; your sins are forgiven. - Matthew 9:2 NASB

I tell you not to worry about everyday life-- whether you have enough. - Matthew 6:25 NLT

Take courage. I am here! - Matthew 14:27 NLT

Do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. - Matthew 10:28

Do not fear, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom. - Luke 12:32

Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me... I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am. - John 14:1, 3 NLT

Don't be troubled or afraid. - John 14:27

"Why are you frightened?" he asked. "Why are your hearts filled with doubt?' - Luke 24:38

Jesus came and touched them and said, "Arise, and do not be afraid" - Matthew 17:7

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Jesus doesn't want us to live in a state of fear and neither do we! "Fear may fill our world, but it doesn't have to fill our hearts. It will always knock on our door. Just don't invite it in for dinner, and for heaven's sake don't offer it a bed for the night. Let's embolden our hearts with a select number of Jesus' "do not fear" statements. The promise of Christ and the contention of this book are simple:

We can fear less tomorrow than we do today."

I'm still sore from my accident and I don't know the long terms affects, I need to find a lawyer from Texas for my case, and because of this situation that is still pending on many levels, I feel like all other things are on pause. Moving into my home, getting my license to find a job, getting a car, community, etc...

But I'm realizing more and more that life does throw some curve balls. It stinks at the time and I call sulk and cry for a bit cus its okay. But I can't let it take the center of my heart and allow fear to take root, because God is in control of all things for he is sovereign so I need to have FAITH!

So thank you God for my family. Thank you for my moms car that she sometimes shares... LOL! Thank you for my health. Thank you that you are providing open doors and windows to slowly get my "situations" under control. Thank you for the amazing friends you have provided in the past for me to meet and currently know.

And most importantly Thank You for your promises about being fearless that are true yesterday, today, and forever!

daddy's little girl ( :

2011-08-15T14:19:00.000-07:00

Christmas time... i loved presents : P

of course we knew how to eat!! : D


he could always carry both of us... DUH he was the strongest man in the world ( : My daddy has been working out in our yard ever since we moved to this new location about 4 years ago. And when I say yard I mean 5 acres of land in the middle of nowhere where we have HUGE pine trees, etc. His goal is to clear out these HUGE trees so that eventually my parents can move out of their tiny little place and into their settlement home that they will eventually design and build. So anyways, when I would come home for break I would always go out for one of those days to help my dad (and I couldnt do much other than gather little things, etc.), but I would spend time with him each visit and make it a point to help him with what I could do. Since, I am now living with my parents I am able to go out more often. Yesterday, I came home early, grabbed a bite to eat and went out to help him clear some land. In those moments my dad and I always share things here and there and its our father, daughter time where I connect and just get to know my daddy. For some reason yesterday as I saw my father working I was reminded of how blessed I am to have such a loving father. And I began reflecting back on my childhood days when I thought the world of him. He was my hero and nothing could stop him. He was the smartest, strongest, hard working, loving guy in the world. Smartest because: I asked why for everything and in my mind he always had the right answer! Strongest because: He could lift me up with one arm (and I asked for this quite frequently to be amazed by his strength : ). I remember my father being away every now and again for work. In first grade he was away for at least a year for the dessert storm and I remember the difference in the atmosphere of my home with and without my father's presence. His presence alone assured me that nothing bad could ever happen! Hard working because: He was in the army and he trained hard! He would help out at home and he always had time to make me pancake, egg, and bacon breakfasts upon request and on weekend mornings. . Loving because: I always knew my father loved me, esp when he would give/buy me sweets when my mom was so strict and wouldnt. Or when he'd tell me to wear extra clothes when I was going to be spanked if I got anything lower than an A+. LOL! Just kidding! Whether we played board games, he helped me with my studies, the way he served me, his big daddy hugs, or just the way my father looked at me. I just knew my daddy would do anything for me because I KNEW he loved me based on the consistent ways he showed and affirmed this love. So yes, yesterday I started to think back on the way I saw my father as a little girl and I began to calculate the years. I've known my father for 28 years nows. He had me when he was 23 and so I've know him for more than half of his life. We talked about time flying by, his marriage to my mom, his purpose in life, when I was a little girl, etc. I'm still daddy's little girl. Of course I'm much older and I see ALL his flaws... ahahaha. But yesterday, I was reminded of why I love my daddy and why as a little girl I thought the world of my father. : D. <3

INCEPTION.

2011-08-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

It's been 7 years since I lived in Washington state and after visiting twice a year for the past 7 years, I felt that same, old, "visitor" feeling when I arrived back at "home" on July 30th.

The first week everything was surreal for me. I knew in my mind that I moved back to Washington and this wasn't just a visit, but because I'm a creature of habit and I had been moving from apt to apt every year for the past 7 years, and I have been traveling to Washington twice a year for the past 7 years, I couldn't shake this feeling in my heart that THIS was just another visit.

It wasn't until a couple of days ago that it hit me that I had MOVED here.

This isn't just a visit... this is for good.

I know it'll take much time to transition into a new location, but with everything being so new I've been longing more for what I know to be comfortable. I KNOW I'm a creature of comfort. Don't get me wrong, my friends can vouch for me in saying that I LOVE adventures and new experiences, but I also enjoy the familiar especially when it comes to people/friends/community/family. I love the comfort of really knowing a person and them knowing me, so the fact that I have to begin anew with this area in my life affects me the most.

Sadly, as I read back on this post, I see that I'm not that excited to be back in this state, but as one friend once said to me after a traumatic car accident. I'm resilient... and yes I am... but sometimes, it's just nice to lean, depend, and not have to be so resilient. And unfortunately, because I'm an adult and have much to take care of, that time is NOT now. Boo~ LOL!

Inception- according to dictionary.com, its a noun and means beginning, start, and commencement.

And that's exactly what this chapter in my life is. It's a commencement for all that I have gone through in my past and as I move forward, may I apply all that I have learned to the beginning of new experiences and the start of my new life.

So I guess to be optimistic its Cheers to Inceptions!

Quotes from a book I am reading...=D

2009-06-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

"Peace is a fruit of the Spirit. Peace is that tangible presence of a relaxed, confident feeling a person experiences when everything is right (even when things are not right)."

"Thankfulness is how you think; joy is the abundance it produces."

"Live with thanksgiving, forgiveness, and joy, and enjoy all your moments as if they were your last. Someday, soon enough, they will be."

Too long since I last blogged and too much to blog about when I need to sleep. Ahahaha I have been reading a few books these days and these were some quotes out of one. These particular quotes are from a book about women...ahahaha. But yeah...I liked then lots so I wanted to share.

Anyways...Texas is HOT. Church planting is an amazing experience that is both hard and full of joy. And being 26 is lovely...Im learning lots about myself and others and realizing more and more how great getting older is...but also how complicated things can get as well =D.

Cant believe that we are already at the half-way marker of 2009...man time flies...it really does...

Cheers to Life... and Love of course...=D

peace...

2009-03-31T20:46:00.000-07:00

OMG...hello blog! =D

Its been about 3 months since my last post and dang I do not know where all the time goes. Ahahaha if anyone even remembers that I have a blog...

I think I will take away from my blogging that Id definitely rather sit and talk with people about the various going ons in my life then write about it!! =D

So yes yes, lately I have been challenged by God to learn again and again to trust in all of His ways, for he truly does want whats best in my life. A couple of months ago, I experienced for the first time EVER in my life to fully surrender. I mean FULLY. I had this amazing peace in my heart that not matter what, where, or when, I will be okay as long as I love the Lord.

Ahahahaa...its quite funny to me at times when I see the fickleness of my own heart. Because of course that peace is still in my heart...but I definitely experience moments of doubt because of the various areas of uncertainty in my life. But one thing that I am thankful for at the time, is that I know God is growing me. Because in the past when I did go through hardships or uncertainty, I really questioned what God was doing.

But now I see that God really does love me. He loves me enough to challenge me in my weaknesses...it hasnt been easy and to be quite honest this is just the beginning so who knows what I will go through in the future...with future grips or doubts...etc...

But for now...

Philippians 4:7

"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

tuesdays with Morrie

2008-12-17T18:14:00.000-08:00

I just read tuesdays with Morrie and if you haven't read it, it's good and it's a short, easy read if you want to pick up a book =D. It's a true story about a teacher names Morrie suffering from ALS (amyotrophic lateral sclerosis) and the lessons he teaches one of his closest students about life.

One of my favorite parts...

"I heard a nice little story the other day, " Morrie says. He closes his eyes for a moment and I wait.

"Okay. the story is about a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand old time. He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air---until he notices the other waves in the front of him, crashing against the shore.

" 'My God, this is terrible,' the wave says. 'Look what's going to happen to me!'

"Then along comes another wave. It sees the first wave, looking grim, and it says to him, 'Why do you look so sad?'

"The first wave says, 'You don't understand! We're all going to crash! All of us waves are going to be nothing! Isn't it terrible?'

"The second wave says, 'No, you don't understand. You're not a wave, you're part of the ocean.' "

I smile. Morrie closes his eyes again.

"Part of the ocean," he says, "part of the ocean." I watch him breathe, in and out, in and out.

Ahhhhh Cu~te!

We are part of an ocean... like the ripple...puahahahaaa...

whatever comes to mind.

2008-12-16T18:39:00.000-08:00

hahahaaa...its been a while since I last blogged and normally I have all these witty and insightful things to share...ahahahaa..=P but today I'm just going to blog random thoughts that come across my mind.

Christmas is almost here! I absolutely Love this time of the year... when people are cheery and giving and when families get together to celebrate the Holiday...ahhh I feel warm and toasty inside as I think about the Holiday. I started thinking about Christmas earlier cus when I see my patients I wish them a Happy Holiday since I won't see most of them for 6 months. =D So naturally right after Thanksgiving, I started to wish people a Merry Christmas...HoHoHo!!

9 more days til Christmas....EEEEE...

So anyways...work is going okay. To be honest we have some issues at times and I see how gossip and stuff can begin at work, but we are making the most of our working environment and Im thankful for my workplace. Above is a picture of my co-workers and I at a restaurant called Spaghetti Warehouse in downtown Austin. Whenever we have a birthday, we work through lunch, get off a couple hours early and the birthday person picks a place that they want to eat and celebrate. To be quite honest, the place was a bit chilly and the food was alright...nothing to rave about...-.-

And then theres this lovely picture below of me with beautiful flowers!! =D

And I'm guessing most of you may be wondering where they came from right? Ahhh...well they are from ME! =D I bought them for myself cus I thought they were beautiful...yap yap! Ha shameless...ahahaha and when Mich's co-worker came over and saw it...she sent our apartment flowers the following day with a note saying something along the lines of...every women deserves beautiful flowers...puahahahaha...

So yes, other than that...the two things that have been on my mind these past couple of months are life and death.

It's crazy to read the news and interact with so many different people on a daily basis. It really opens my eyes to see that life is freaking crazy as I hear about cancer, other types of illnesses, and other accidents that occur in a moments notice and BAM! that person is gone. Life is freaking short and I just never know...death... hmmm a strong word that carries much. Life is short and death is inevitable.

I have been thinking about my life lately... And I have been questioning my own life and how I am living it out each day radically for God. Hahaahaa I met up with Pastor Ben the other day. What a wise Pastor I may say... =D I have been asking this question to many, but I never gotten an answer that I was fully satisfied with until I asked him.

Question: What does it mean to live a life that is radical?

Answer: To live for God each day and to put him first and before everything else...

Life...

Death...

There is so much in life that is out there to do, to experience, to see, to know. And so~o many of my own plans that I really really really...ahahaha...REALLY want to experience. But the question that I continue to stumble across is. How much do I really love God? More than my future? More than my dreams? My desires? My hopes? Am I willing to take that step of faith each moment, each day, each year and surrender and live a life that is radical. Because I know that life here on earth is temporary and despite my own desires, its the choices I make here on earth that will account for the life after death...

Freakin Pastor Seth was right when he said it only gets harder when we get older. Now that I am turing 26 next year, it's getting harder...not gonna lie...=D

But anyways...this entry is probably the most random and open ended I have yet submitted...ahahaha And I'm going to leave it at this.

I have to wake up and be at work by 645am everyday this week until the 23rd of Dec because we work through lunch and get off earlier to avoid the Christmas traffic.

So~o TTYL Peoples! Im going to sleep! =D

Co-Workers!

2008-10-13T19:22:00.001-07:00

These are the 4 dental assistants that I work with at my dental office. =D When we order supplies for the office sometimes we get gift cards to restaurants or other goodies to eat...yummmyy... So on this particular day we went to Subway. Yum, I had the chicken, bacon, ranch with avacado and banana peppers...MmmmmmmmMM...ahahahaa.=)

Then we went back to the office and took one last picture before we had to head back to work.

The area behind us is what you see when you first walk into the office...it's a small place. =D

Do you see the little emblem on the legs and pockets of our scrubs? What is it?

Ahahaha we wear these scrubs right before each football game because my doctor is a HUGE HUGE diehard UT alumni/fan. He purchased these scrubs for us...and they were freaking expensive...shoooot man otherwise forget the longhorns...ahahahhaaa.... He is such a HUGE fan, that he is even going to miss part of the American Dental Association Conference on Saturday to come back for the Missouri/Texas game this Saturday....ahahahhaaa.=)

So anyways...these are the ladies that I work with for most of my week and these are the ladies that I will be going to the dental conference with on Friday. As well as with one other U of M alumni that used to be the hygienist there and also comes on Mondays to work in the office with us because she just loves the office too much to completely leave it.

So anyways, I am going to take my CE (continuing education) course credits at the Dental Conference that is being held in San Antonio from Friday-Sunday, but I am going for just Friday-Saturday because of church on Sunday. Whoohoooo...exciting!! =)

I feel professional...ahahahaa...=) I will be surrounded by dental professionals from all over the world...eeeEEEEEEEEeeeeEe =P.

The Academy Is...

2008-10-12T19:00:00.000-07:00

Last Thursday, I took part in one of most unforgettable experiences of my life!!

Above is a picture of me with my friend Melina. She is an exchange student from Spain that I met on the UT campus a little while back. While I was getting to know her, she told me about this band and how she bought tickets for herself and she didnt know anyone who was going with her, so I decided to go.

This band plays alternative/rock music and I had no idea what to expect because I have never gone to a concert before.

So anyhow, to make a LONG LONG LON~nNNgG 7 hours short. I went to a concert and I stood in the 2nd-3rd row during the WHOLE concert. Now this is alternative music, so if you stand in the front row you get caught in a mosh pit. Do you know what that is?

Well, I have heard about it here and there throughout my life, but I had no idea that that was what I was about to experience. So for FOUR WHOLE Hours, I was being bumped, rubbed, elbowed, jumped on...and by the end of the night I was bruised, covered with my own sweat and the sweat of others, and tired from standing and trying to keep from being trampled on.

And no, this is not an exaggeration...above is a picture of me after 3 hours and unfortunately this picture does not fully capture the closeness of the people or my FULL JOY of being in that MOSH PIT!

Ahahahaa...so yes, this is what I recently took part in and the picture that I took was after 3 hours of being in a mosh pit and right before the last band came on to play.

Ahahahaa...right before the last band came on, I was seriously contemplating whether or not I should watch or listen from outside because I knew that I hadn't yet fully experienced the worst of the pushing, squeezing, sweating, screaming, and jumping...but then... tah dah!!....

Ahahahaa...this cute asian guy came out. =) He was HOT! =D Ahahahahaa...he was either the sound guy or the roadie. But either way...he brought 5 minutes of joy during those 4 hours of discomfort. =D So I decided to take a picture of him as he was testing the drums.

Ehehehee...

crack

myself

up...=P

But yes yes...last Thursday, I had one of the longest, more memorable days since I have arrived in Austin, so I wanted to share this memorable experience with you guys. I saw Hey Monday, Something?? Liars, We Three Kings, and the Academy Is.

From the funny, the hard times, to even my fickle moment with the guy that I thought was really cute!! Ahahahahaa....

Enjoy!! =D

Girl Fun!! =D

2008-10-04T16:24:00.000-07:00

My roommates and I get together once a week to pray and share about our lives, struggles, and joys. But this particular week we decided to share over a meal at Korea Garden.

In Austin, we have yet to find a Korean restaurant that is delicious, but this one wasn't too far from home and it was decent. =D

So anyhow, afterwards, I wanted to take pictures together...ahahaha... so we went to our rooftop and took pictures by the fountain. =D The rooftop of our place is gorgeous, we have a small grill, an area for sun bathing, a wide flat screen tv, and you can also see the Austin skyline!! =D Yaya you wanna visit us eh? Anytime...ANY TIME!

Ahahahaha.... well time for me to eat dinner AND get ready for a night out on the UT campus to watch a show by the UT students called China Night 2008. =D

Hope you guys are having a wonderful week!!!! =D

Amazing Grace

2008-09-24T19:45:00.000-07:00

"When people ask of great men, they think of men like Napoleon- men of violence. Rarely do they think of peaceful men. But contrast the reception they will receive when they return home from their battles. Napoleon will arrive in pomp and in power, a man who's achieved the very summit of early ambition. And yet his dreams will be haunted by the oppressions of war. William Wilberforce, however, will return to his family, lay his head on his pillow and remember; the slave trade is no more."

- Lord Charles Fox

Have you seen the movie Amazing Grace? It's about a man named William Wilberforce and his role in abolishing the slave trade.

I watched it about 2 weeks ago on my day off because I wanted to watch something that would inspire me to live a radical life. It was a great movie and after watching it I kept thinking about William's life and how he witnessed lives being killed and inhumanity taking place through the slave trade and how that burden was so strong that he lived each day and did whatever he could to stop the slave trade.

He was haunted with images, he couldnt eat, and his health was deteriorating because he was so consumed with the abolition of slavery, so he did whatever he could to pass the Slavery Abolition Act.

So, after watching this movie I wondered to myself...

What makes a person so burdened that their whole life revolves around a certain issue. Is is just their experiences? Is it their specific character? And many people have burdens that last for a little while and with very little accomplished in living out their convictions. What makes a conviction consume one to the point of living their lives out each and everyday for that specific burden with regards to nothing else?

For myself...this is something that I have been pondering on these past few weeks and as I live in the world, but strive not to be of the world... I have to keep myself in check each day by asking myself if I am living a life of boldness and fearlessness with the courage to stop at nothing to make the name of Christ known...

William Wilberforce...dang yo... What a great man!

the little things...

2008-09-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

Wow, life can become so busy and overwhelming with various things that need to be done that it is so easy to overlook all the little things in life.

I remember when I was growing up how I would pride myself in doing little things for people and even judging others based upon the little things they did consistently in life. Ahahaahaa one of my criteria's for my "husband" was for me to judge if I saw consistency in giving and selflessness in the little things that he did.

Remember in the wedding singer, with Drew Barrymore. There was a scene towards the end where she travels on an airplane for the first time with her fiance. He was sitting in the window seat and Drew was sitting in the middle seat. Drew clearly stated that she had never ridden on an airplane and he obviously had, so she expressed her excitement and how she wanted to look out the window. Now in my opinion, if he was a decent guy he would have switched seats with her. But, he was like, "ah... I like the window seat too, so how about you look over my shoulder to see outside."

EWWWWWWWWWWWWW, I was about 15 years old then and I remember thinking that he was such a jerk and how I would never ever marry someone like that.

Ahahahaa, so yes yes, Im not married so I kept my promise to myself eh? eh? =D

But yes yes, so lately I have been praying for joy in ministry and the daily things in life and God of course has once again proven himself to be faithful.

Lately, I have been reflecting upon the things in life that are given to me daily and that I can easily take for granted.

1. People. Those I lived with, had life group with, shared a meal with, served with.

2. Encouraging emails. Ahh, thanks for taking time out to email me and share your lives. When I hear about all that you guys are doing and experiencing I am really blessed and motivated to press on in ministry because we truly do have a partnership in Christ.

3. Text messaging. This is such a good way to keep in contact with people.

4. Food. Im all about good food. I love cooking, experimenting, and eating together. The other day I ate cereal for breakfast (cereal btw is the last thing I want to eat in the morning, cus Id rather eat something warm like ramen or rice=), but yes yes... I ate cinnamon toast crunch and cut up bananas to put in. It was good...you should try it...ahahahaa...^.^

5. Toilet paper. Ahahahaa for reals. Sometimes I wonder what it was like back in the day =)...but then i stop when my imagination takes me too far...=).

So yes yes...daily things right...but things I can honestly overlook at times. Obviously there are so many more things that I can be thankful for (which I am), but at 11:30pm at night, these were the things that I remember and want to share.

Take care PEOPLES! I am going to try and update 1x weekly at least.

Miss Yous & Much Love...

Struck Down

2008-08-08T08:36:00.000-07:00

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not adandoned; struck down, but not destroyed."

Lately, I have been having a rough couple of weeks and to top off my rough weeks, I had a robery at my office 2 days ago during our lunch break and my wallet was stolen.

Logically, its not that huge of a deal, and honestly I have so much to be thankful for even in this situation, but honestly because I have already been going through hard and stretching times, my wallet being stolen was the last brick that needed to be placed on a tower of leaning bricks to strike me down.

I broke down yesterday for the first time since I have been in Austin. I believe truly that church planting is not easy. Its not easy because it takes a lot of time and sacrifice, but even more than that, its not easy cus theres just so much spiritual battle.

Its so ironic because I feel like the more I try and fight to overcome, the more battle that is placed my way and then to top it off situations will come at perfect moments to knock me down. Knock me down just enough to humble me, to cause me to lean upon God, to break me to the point of desperation, to desire to RUN, but not enough to actually allow me to quit.

I know logically that my wallet being stolen is easily replaced. I mean I have to change all my cards, I have to take the vehical exam again, I lost a good amount of cash, and theres a random man out there who knows my likes and dislikes, who has my photo identification and all of it disgusts me to know that this creep knows even pieces of who I am.

But after a day of being able to reflect upon God, to repent, and to internalize, I now have to pick back up and dust it all off and just move forward.

Yesterday a friend emailed this verse to me.

Do Not Forget the Lord

Be careful to follow every command I am giving you today, so that you may live and increase and may enter and possess the land that the LORD promised on oath to your forefathers. Remember how the LORD you God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD. Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years. Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so that the LORD your God dsciplines you.

- Deuteronomy 8:1-5

And yes, I have to confess, I failed this test because in this situation, God was not the center of my thoughts, nor was our Thursday prayer walking something that I wanted to part in.

But, its okay, God's grace is sufficient and covers me.

Im honestly not fully over this situation, nor am I filled with an abundance of joy. But all will be okay. Press on, move forward, and keep my eyes on Christ...=D

52 years of love! =D

2008-08-01T05:42:00.000-07:00

One sight in the world that truly melts my heart...awww...ahahaha is when I see an old couple walking down the streets or in a grocery store and they are holding hands.

Something about that old, committed love just tickles me pink. Puhahahaha... =D

I enjoy this sight because I imagine that the couple has gone through the thick and thin together, and yet they are still going strong with each other by their sides. I guess the holding hands to me not only shows a sign of affection, but also a sign that they are still holding on TOGETHER.

Eheheheee...but anyhow, the reason why I am blogging about this is because yesterday I had a couple come in that was in their 70's. First I saw the husband, because he loves going first and then the wife. They were so upbeat, talkative, and open about sharing stories of their lives with me.

The man was still a fighter who loved to golf...ahaha and he said he loved it when he went on the course with his older buddy and played against younger boys and showed them the skills that they have learned over the years by beating them. Ahahaha he threw out scores like 6-0, 6-1...ahahahhaa and even though I had no clue what those numbers meant...I knew it meant he was playing well, so I just nodded. Ahahahahaaa.

But then I saw the wife and she was lovely. She told me about her life and how they have been married for 52 years. Crazy!?!?!! They travel a lot still and they are very active and healthy.

So, at the end of the appointment, I took her out to meet her husband and he was no longer in the waiting room.

We waited a couple of minutes and as soon as he came in, they started flirting/joking together.

She said, "I thought you left me here at the dental office and I was going to have to find another way home."

He said, "No no, hunnie, I was right next door, trying to find some shoes for you." As he said this, he winked at me because I was watching the both of them.

She replied, "Sure you were sweetie, right next door at Toys R Us =)."

Aahahhahahaa cus you see we have Toys R Us right next door to us and they have been coming to the dental office for so long that they both knew that.

Ehehehee...get it?!!? So anyhow, it was soo cute to not just see a couple holding hands as the strolled down the street, but to actually meet one that is still together after many many years, who are healthy and still able to "flirt" with one another.

Awwwww, doesn't it just tickle you pink!! =D

Ahahahahaa...okay time to go and start my day with various ERRANDS (diana=) to run...ehehehe...

Toodles!!

Random days...

2008-07-27T11:58:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello!! =D

Ahahahaahhaaa...I have been trying to blog about death since the beginning of last week because I have randomly been running across random articles and hearing about people around me becoming ill with a certain condition and it has caused me to reflect upon my senior year at the U of M when my mom became ill and how there is just so much uncertainty in life.

BUT...when I reread what I wrote... death is just such a weighty topic that when I blogged about it, I felt as if my whole insides were exposed...puahahahahaaa!! =D

So maybe next time when it's late at night and I don't mind being so vulnerable! =D

So, yes unlike my past blogs, I don't have anything particularly remarkable to say or blog about...ahahahahaa. ;). But, I haven't blogged is so long that I wanted to update, so~o lets see Ill just blog randomly about what has happened to me in the past two weeks.

1. I had my car towed for the first time in my life.

2. I was super duper uber tired two weeks ago from just trying to adjust to the working adult life and taking part in ministry (this will be an on going process because I heard it takes about one year).

3. I watched the black night and it is so~o good. Not only is Christian Bale a hottie (only in the movie), but the whole movie was action packed and the plots were very well thought out. Muahahaa...Keith Ledger played such a great role as joker. Ahh it's really sad that he passed away so young =(.

4. I am now a true Texan because my license plates and title are now registered in Texas.

5. I saw my mom and bro last week because they came to visit my aunt in Texas, and my imo's home is about four hours away from Austin.

6. I swam in a pool that is filled with salt water instead of chlorinated water because supposedly it is better for your skin, so that's what my aunt has in her back yard.

7. I have been packing here and there because the ladies are moving in with PB, Susan, and Isaiah for 14 days. Our current lease is ending and our new one doesn't begin until the 14th of August, so we are being taken in by our loving Pastor's family...ahahaa.

8. I killed a HUGE cockroach that was on our wall the other night and it was freaking sick.

9. We had had 2 more outreaches on the past 2 Saturday's where we went rock climbing for the first one and then canoeing for the second.

10. Our church ministry is beginning to pick up, so I am experiencing (not yet to the full impact) of the stretching, breaking, and selfless, but joyful ways in which I am going to grow this coming year.

Ahh okay time to get ready for bed...Im tired...mer! =D....

Also, the HMCC of Austin is currently taking part in our own 40 days of fasting and prayer to prepare for this upcoming year. If you could cover us in prayer that would be absolutely amazing. And also, the bros of our church are still looking for jobs =D. Ben, Matt, and Toufue.

Thanks Guys! Until next time!

The Cost...

2008-07-05T11:40:00.000-07:00

As a team we are reading through the 4 Gospels together and we just started on July 1st. I feel like we are a family to be honest... Ahaahaa and I Love It! =D

So, today we were assigned to read the book of Matthew chapters 9-10. As I was reflecting upon the passages, I was reminded once again that each time God called His disciples, they had to be ready at the exact moment that they were called, no matter what circumstance they were placed in. And that's when the verse from Matthew 16: 24-25 about what Jesus told his disciples came to mind:

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it."

Of course, God chose these disciples and so He knew their hearts and that they were ready. But, I remember reading this verse over this past summer and reflecting on how easy it is to say these words, but so hard it is to actually live it out each and every day.

I mean following after Christ, truly is hard on so many different levels. It costs us to surrender much, to forego our own worldly desires at times, to be different, and also to live a life that can be uncomfortable at times. But then I came across this simple quote. It's so simple and yet filled with so much meaning that I wanted to share it with everyone. =D

It costs to follow Jesus Christ, but it costs more not to...

Reign In Us

2008-07-03T09:41:00.000-07:00

You thought of us before the world began to breathe

You knew our names before we came to be

You saw the very day we'd fall away from you

And how desperately we need to be redeemed

Lord Jesus

Come lead us

We are desperate for your touch

Oh Great and Mighty One

With one desire we come

That you would reign

That you would reign in us

We're offering up our lives

A living sacrifice

That you would reign

That you would reign in us

Spirit of the Living God fall fresh again

Come search our heart and purify our lives

We need your perfect love

We need your discipline

We're lost unless you guide us with your light

We cry out

For your love to refine us cry out

For your mercy to keep us

Blameless until you return

So reign please reign in us

Come purify our heart we need your touch

Come cleanse us like a flood and send us out

So the world may know you reign you reign in us

I had the day off today, so I decided to go running...ahaahaa, I say running but it was more like jogging/walking. For sure... running with one other person definitely keeps me accountable to do this correctly.

So, anyhow, this song by Starfield came on and struck my heart as a prayer for our church. For God to truly reign in the lives of us, for He is the one who knew we'd be on this church plant, and as we have come faithfully desiring to be used by Him, I was reminded of just the desperation that we need to have for God to reign in our lives.

On a funny note...=D. It rained the other night here in Austin while my roommies and I decided to talk a long walk around the city. Get it...reigned/rained...puahahahaa...this is Jenny Vick! =D

But anyhow, it was soo refreshing to walk around the city and chat and to finish it off with at least 15 minutes of being rained on...ahahaa. Everyone around us was fretting and trying to stay dry...but not I. I was loving every moment!! =D It was soo REFRESHING and carefree... everyone should try it!! =D

But yes... may God continue to work in the lives of people at our church and reign in each and everyone of our lives, for He is the Great and Mighty King and there is no one else or anything else I'd rather live for!

Love Yous and Im praying for Yous!

But seek first...

2008-06-22T20:55:00.000-07:00

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well"

Ahaha I started this entry about one week ago with this verse and I am finally going to blog about it. Wow, during these past 2 weeks, I got a job a a dental office, I went to Philly for the AMI conference, we have been doing little outreaches to get to know the few people that we have met, and all in all God has used all these moments to teach me to just seek him first.

Life is so funny when I think about it. Life here on earth is temporary and all the materials and prestige that we strive to live for are exactly that. TEMPORARY! These things last and are used for only a period of time. But why is it that I continue to get caught up in a cycle of striving to achieve and receive the very things that will only satisfy for so long.

Ahahahaa. Lately, Im just taken aback by the fact that God is gracious, his love is unconditional, and he knows the depths of my heart so well that he will provide accordingly.

Even when I got this job at the dental office. Ahahaha, it was seriously only given to me when I was at the point of ultimate surrender and dependence. God works in His mysterious ways and even though I dont understand during the process, it is so clear in the end of why things work out the way they do.

I worked my first day today and the doctor is so amazingly nice! He is starting me off slowly with the patients, so I only saw 7 today and as the weeks pick up I will see more patients. If the other 2 positions had opened up, then I wouldn't be where I am today, so praise God for closing the wrong doors before opening the right one.

Oh yeah and today I read the book of Ruth. Ahahaha, I want to be as devoted and loving to this church plant as Ruth was to Naomi. She is one women, who knew what would honor her mother-in-law and God blessed her life because of it.

God is Always gooD!

While PB was gone!

2008-06-14T10:48:00.000-07:00

On Sunday the 8th of June, we went to visit a church called Celebration Church. They had an amazing service with an amazing welcoming team (or at least that was what we experienced with a welcomer named Keith). Afterwards, we went to eat at a Japanese restaurant, that was eh... okay. =) Ben, got the Beef Don and stated, "it's not as good as Saica."

This was the last meal with just PB and the U-Soulers, before he left the following day to fly back to AA and pick up Rachel and his family.

WHILE PASTOR BEN WAS GONE ::: THIS IS WHAT THE U-SOULERS HAVE BEEN DOING!

Take1: A regular pose.

Thursday, the 12th of June 2008.

After a day of breaking fast together with cali rolls and yakisoba, walking around campus and talking with students, playing 2 games of Texas Hold 'Em, this is how we wanted to end the last night with just the u-soulers (matt flew into AA the following day for Rebecca and Jon's wedding...ahhhhh).

Take 2.

With 10 seconds before the picture, Ben decides to UNLEASH and be his crazy self. So, he falls onto Matt squishing him and Matt still trys to look at the camera and smile. I try my best to retain a cute smile with my hands doing something weird (I have no idea what type of pose that is)...puahahahaa and I kick my leg up, so that the boys don't fall onto the space that Michelle and I are occupying. And Michelle is on the side looking like a bird who is squawking about the crazyness that Ben just started!?!

Take 3.

Michelle thought of the movie Kung Fu Panda, and it's one that PB really wants to watch. So, we decided to take a picture like the animals...puahahahahahaa!! =D

Featuring...

Ben Lee: Crane

Matt Jorgensen: Mantis

Jenny Vick: Tiger

Michelle Lee: Monkey

Interviews for June 10th-18th

2008-06-09T19:04:00.000-07:00

Working Interviews for the week: time and date are posted

June 10th: 1pm-5pm

- full-time position

- benefits

- off on Fridays (so I can set-up for Access)

- 1 hour lunch break

June 11th: 7:45am-4pm

- full-time position

- don't know if benefits are included

- off on Fridays (so I can set-up for Access)

- NO lunch break (I like eating lunch for energy =)

June 18th: 7:45am- 4:15pm

- 3 days a week for work

- benefits are not included

- off on Mondays and Tuesdays

- 30 minute lunch break

***If you guys could lift up a prayer, that would be fabulous. As you can see the Tuesday working interview is the best, but after the long interviewing process I am learning to just surrender.

TicTacs+Cards+Friends+Snacks= ??

2008-06-09T15:57:00.000-07:00

Two Games of TEXAS HOLD 'EM

(top left: materials we used. top right: matt contemplating on what his next move should be)

On Saturday, the 7th of June, Jenny Vick played her first

game of Poker with experienced competitors Ben Lee, Michelle Lee, and Matt Jorgenson. Two games were played and the consequence for the two losers of the first game were to write 10 nice things on the wall of the two winners' facebook. And the consequence of the second game were for the losers to make dinner for the top winners.

They didn't have poker chips, but with creative friends like Ben and Matt they substituted the chips with tic tacs that the roots class thoughtfully placed in their Austin farewell care packages.

The first round for the night started with much excitement between the competitors. After receiving their pocket cards Matt and Michelle folded, leaving Ben and Jenny to play head-to-head. Jenny's pocket cards were a pair of Ace's and Ben's were a pair of Jack's. After the dealer dealt the flop (3 community cards face-up) the 3rd card ended up being a Jack, giving Ben trips (3 of a kind). Ben decided to go all-in with his 3 trips, and Jenny followed. After revealing their cards, craziness broke out between the players because Ben went over the rules of the game with Jenny before everything had started and Jenny was taught that a 3 card hand didn't count in poker.

Ben and Jenny concluded that it was only fair that the 3 card hand wouldn't count and that they would start the round over. And good thing, because Matt decided to deal the rest of the cards to see what the outcome would have been if the rules were clearly set. The fourth card, also known as the turn card was dealt having no affect on the players hands. BUT when the river (the 5th and final community card) was dealt, it was an ACE, giving Jenny an ACE trip, which would have given her a win for that round and wiped Ben out of the first game.

In the end the winners were...

Check out the facebooks of these players to find out the results.

(Ben (bottom right) chuckles on how he is going to wipe Jenny (bottom left) out. Michelle was the photographer for the night, so no picture of her was taken)

A Short and Sweet Clarification of the BOYS Blog.

2008-06-09T14:46:00.000-07:00

1. This blog is not about me (maelong).

***maelong= a korean sound to describe the act of sticking out ones tongue.

2. I posted this blog because of a few conversations I was having about relationships that week.

3. I'm not just saying that boys are the only gender that can be sketchy. I know girls can be as well, but the title of my blog is "BOYS" not "boys are sketchy and girls are innocent." =)

4. Sketchy= "lacking in completeness."

So, yes to clarify, if someone is ready to date. READY= personally and spiritually mature. Then, please be my guest and give signals, but give signals that are not sketchy. Give signals where you will follow through and take that relationship to the next level or don't bother to give those signals at all.

And don't forget the word READY is capitalized because I believe that is key to make a relationship work. =)

Okay...hope this is brings some clarification to all you sketchballs out there! Puahahaha...kidding! =P

5. And, yes I know that there are holes in my post. Ahahaa, but its okay, relationships can be complicated. I'm not majoring in relationships and posting on my research. I just wanted to post about what I was reflecting on about boys for that week...=D

Boys!?!

2008-06-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

Ahahahaa, this is only my 5th blog and I am already so itchy to blog about the opposite gender. Funny isn't it.

The other day I was talking to someone online about relationships and the things that we learn after breaking up. He said something that I have definitely heard elsewhere, but for some reason this time around the words continue to linger inside my head.

I seriously ask myself why is this statement lingering? Is it because of the the life stage that I'm at? Or because I hear ridiculous, sketchy stories about what some guys do? Maybe it's because I have my own bias observations of the opposite gender? I honestly can't pin point exactly why, or even why Im blogging about it at 12am instead of sleeping. But yes, regardless, here I am and these were the words...

"The guy needs to risk it and put it out there. If you are scared of defining the relationship, then you don't deserve a relationship."

Ahhhh APPLAUSE!! Ahahahahahaa very well said, I'd have to say!!

Of course, of course, a guy cannot just pull the trigger at every little, tiny, miniscule, feeling that arises. Sho~oot, if that were the case, then wow, people would be in broken relationships everywhere (there are many cases in the world like this). I definitely don't want this to occur.

BUT, dang, can guys stop being so sketchy. If you like the freaking girl then do your homework and go for it. Stop beating around the bush and having these pseudo relationships that confuse the girl and cause her to wonder and think and then even get hurt in the end. And if you don't like her, then stop leading her on. Don't give her special attention and don't go out of your way to talk to her. I really believe that most girls have this 6th sense of knowing. I can't speak for every girl, but most do.

So, MAN-UP! Ahahahaha...I heard from Kav that if you use this on a guy, then they have to do it otherwise it hurts their man pride =D.

Puahahahaa...like I said, I don't know exactly why I'm blogging about this. I think maybe it's pent up frustration from stories that I have been hearing and when I heard that quote it was exactly what I needed to blog!

But anyways. I honestly, don't know how many people actually read my blog, but it feels good to get this off my mind. =D

If you are a guy and you are reading this, it may not pertain to you. So thanks for listening...ahaha. But if it does...if you get even a little, tiny, inkling that this is you, then get some accountability, do your homework, and do what you think is the most selfless and most honoring to that sister. Or, just stop being sketchy and let that sister be, because you don't deserve that relationship anyway...=D

AHHHHHHH...Okay, Im refreshed...Ahahahahahaha!

Love yous!! =D Guys too! =)

Irene Lee, did you see the idiom that I used? Hyeri did you understand? Puahahaha...

The Interview Results are IN!

2008-06-05T12:45:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning with the strange feeling that the dental office didn't go with option #1 and I didn't get the position right away. It was already a little passed 10am, and they start work at 7:35am, so I figured if they really wanted me they would have called me right away.

At 10:54am exactly they call...

They decide to go with the option #3 and I have to go in for a working interview next week Tuesday the 10th from 1pm-5pm because they still couldn't decide.

Booo...ahahahaa that was my first response. And my second response was to call my mom and then emily (since she has been talking to me about it everyday), and then my third was to go online and chat with those who are "working" since they can't talk on the phone. =P

But yes yes, I was about to do my QT's before I received the phone call, so God reminded me to do that first. I read in the book of Joshua today and used my usual book, Your Daily Walk by Bruce Wilkinson to reflect.

It's funny the verses that God uses to speak to me. If you know me well enough, you will know that my guiding verse for the past 4 years has been Proverbs 3:5-6. It comes up randomly when I have to make a choice or when something happens in my life.

Well, like I said, I read in the book of Joshua today, but in one of the little sections that I was reading in YDW, this little paragraph came out...

:::What decision are you tempted to make without giving God a single thought? Talk to Him first. God delights in guiding those who acknowledge their need of Him (Proverbs 3:5-6). And the consequences of ignoring Him can't be ignored!:::

It's not like anything huge happened today, nothing sad, the door to work at that specific dental office is still open, but I am so impatient, I just wanted to start working ASAP and have everything set or at least know and not be left hanging around... Ahahahahaha!

But yes yes...once again, I am reminded to just trust...everything will work out... just chill and RELAX (the favorite word of so many at HMCC=).

So, tomorrow I am off to go on another interview and we will just see how everything ends up working out. I can't wait to KNOW...the process of going through the unknown can be soo annoying...=P. Ahahahahaahahaaa...kidding...kinda...=P

Longing to love and trust You more...

2008-06-04T16:30:00.000-07:00

I had an amazing quiet time today. It has honestly been so dry since I came to Austin, but today I was able to really sit in his presence. I was listening to music the whole time that I was praying and at the every end while I was closing out, this song came on.

:::Can I Stay Here Forever by Starfield:::

Through forgotten convictions

Misplaced affections

I'm losing the sound of your voice

I've been chasing after emptiness

Trying to tidy up this mess

I swear I've been down this road before

I want to get back to where it all began

When I would long for only you

Like a child I'll take You at Your word

As these mountains of doubt they fade away

I'm longing to love and trust You more

....

It was a good song for me to close out my qt's with and once again I was reminded that God brought me to Austin and He will provide...

...To make a long story shorter...

Above is a picture that was taken in April of 2007 with the Dean of the dental school, the director of the U of M hygiene program, and my hygiene class of 07' (can you find me?=). After graduating last year, I couldn't find a hygiene job in AA, because the state is saturated with dental professionals, so for the majority of my work, I ended up working at Sadako (the Japanese restaurant) to keep myself financial okay.

Well, since I came to Austin, Tx, I have already been offered 6 interviews. This is Crazy considering I have only been here for 15 days.

I had 2 of my interviews last Thursday the 29th of May and I already heard back from one of the offices saying that they are going to go ahead and try a different hygienist and...ahahaa out of courtesy they asked if they could keep my resume on file =). Ahahahahahaa!!

Anyhow, to be honest, I wasn't disappointed that I didn't the position. It was only 2 days a week and even though they were the ones interviewing me, I was also interviewing the office, and for various reasons it wasn't a office that I could see myself working at long-term.

So, IF you were paying attention, I said that I had TWO interviews that day =P. Well, I ended up getting a 2nd interview with the other office this past Monday. Honestly, I would love to work there. I really took a liking to the doctor, the employees are really nice, it is a full-time position with benefits, and the office's chairside manner is similar to what I learned at the U of M.

The office has narrowed the interviewees to 2 people...Me and One other hygienist. I had my 2nd interview this past Monday and the other hygienist had hers today =). Im not gonna lie, I really want the position...

So yes yes...I am waiting to hear back. There are 3 things that can occur when I hear back from the office:

1. They decide to hire me and I work!! =D

2. They decide to hire the other hygienist and I will have to go on my other interviews for this coming Friday and next Wednesday and continue looking for a position.

3. They still cant decide and I will have to go in for a half day of work, along with the other hygienist (this is called a working interview), and they will decide from there.

All in all, through this experience I am learning to just trust in God. He is in control and even though yes I would love to just finish the process of searching and interviewing, God knows best and He will open up a door to the perfect dental office. Whether that be this one or another. Ill keep you guys updated on what happens and no matter what...

God is good and I have to trust and know that I just need to put my best forth and God will take care of the rest. Wow how reassuring eh?! Ahahahahaha...

Thank you for your prayers!! =D

Trucks...the significance they had in my life?!?

2008-06-03T21:11:00.001-07:00

On the 2nd day of driving from Memphis to Dallas, I was the 2nd car in a row of 4 and I had to follow closely to PB because I was without a walkie talkie and I didnt want to get lost. I did follow closely at first and we ended up loosing Michelle and Matt, so here is a lovely picture of PB and Ben, as we wait for like 10-15 minutes at a gas station. =D

So, anyhow...after they caught up with us, we were on our way again for a long drive on the freeway. Trees are all around us with a clear sky and because I knew that we were going to be driving for at least an hour before we make another move on the freeway, I began to relax, pop in a Cd that my roommies made for me, reflect upon God and life, and continue to follow PB (but not as closely =).

There are 2 lanes on this highway and we are driving on the left side because we are passing drivers on our right. As we drive by 2 large trucks, the 2nd truck decides to pull infront of me. He didnt have too much room to pull in, but he managed to do so very quickly considering he was a pretty large truck. After he made his move... a few thoughts of irritation crossed my mind with the first being: What the heck does this guy think he's doing? And secondly: That Jerk, he could have waited til I passed him? And so on...=)

I'm driving behind this truck for a good distance before he passes the first truck and pulls back into the right lane. The whole time I couldn't see ahead of me, because this truck was blocking my view and as I look ahead to see PB, he was a far distance ahead of me. I accelerated to about 95mph to catch up and as I was speeding to get there, I had began thinking about my personal walk with God.

Driving that day reminded my of my Christian walk. My car is me, PB is leading me, Michelle and Matt can talk to PB through the walkie talkie, but they are following me as well, the road is like the journey of my life and the truck is a circumstance/struggle that can occur. I was reminded of a few things, but the one that I was reflecting upon again today was:

::: I have personal relationship with God and He is one that I desire so much to follow, but when I lose focus, it is easy for me to lose that momentum and fall behind. In this case, if I do lose that momentum, circumstances can occur and I can fall behind on the very things that God has in store for my life. The circumstances can come out of anywhere and when they do, if I dont keep my focus on God and know the direction in which he is leading me, I can lose focus because the circumstance will be soo big that it will transfer my focus from God to that very struggle or situation :::

So yes yes, this reflection was exactly 14 days ago, but I am sharing it because God spoke to me that day and reminded me of it today. Before I left AA, I was growing spiritually, I could feel God moving in my life, and honestly there were so many times during the day where I just wanted to sit in front of God and be in his presence.

But, while I was traveling to Austin and even while I've been here, I began to lose that focus. I began to see the circumstances, the feelings of doubt, and myself more than I saw God. And today, he reminded me again that I need to cling to Him. Cling to Him each day and be reminded that Im on a journey and He is my guide and as long as I desire to follow, he will lead me.

I ran tonight after our whole team met together (susan, rachel and toufue were skyped in with us). And it felt soo~o good to just run, to reflect, and reconnect with God.

Welcome to My Page...

2008-06-03T20:18:00.000-07:00

Wow, its been exactly 2 weeks since our team arrived in Austin, TX. Crazy how quickly time passes us by and as I look back, I wonder what I used my time on (lots of movies, all of the sex and the city episodes, sleeping, interviewing). As I reflect back upon my days when I first remember time going by so quickly, it began in while I was in junior high school (between 7th and 8th grade to be exact). I remember saying each year, "wow this year went by so quickly" and each year would pass by faster than the previous year.

God gave us One Life and each opportunity counts, but its so easy to squander them on momentary, temporary things.

So, anyhow, while I was leaving to come to Austin, I thought about starting a blog because I really value the friendship that I have made with yous and even though we are miles and miles away, I would love to continue to share my life with yous. By reading my blog and the reflections that I post, you can laugh with me when I share about my goofy moments, cry with me when I share about the sad times that I will experience, think critically with me as I analyze moments, and most Importantly, PRAY with me when I share about my struggles and various happenings in my life. I really do covet your prayers! =D

So yes yes...this is my first entry, wow I cannot believe that I will actually post. Check up and read when you have the time and even if you dont have the time, check up anyway, okay...ahahahhaa. I love you guys and I hope to post frequently even if its about the little things that happen in my day. Cus hey... its the little things in life that count...=D

Love Love Love Yous!