Okay, so today was Christmas and it was a good day. I had to depend on my new bible study group and be vulnerable and dependent on getting a ride in the morning (and boy was it hard... LOL... cus although I click with them and will be there for them... it takes more time and trust for me to be OPEN and let myself depend on others with the chance of being hurt and/or disappointed in them).
So yes... after that, I got to Seattle to pass out food/gifts/clothing, but ended up helping a dentist do exams. I only gave him the mirror, passed out the goodies (toothpaste, toothbrush, mouth rinse), but it felt SO good to interact with the dentist/patients and talk about dental stuff again. LOL~ I love my profession and I can't wait to get back into work.
Lastly, in the midst of interacting with the homeless (seeing joyful people, grumpy people, some who were drunk, people who were hurting), I began to think. To think about the need in the world, think about the news and the bombings in Africa and how people died on Christmas day, about how important family/good friends are who will REALLY be there for you not just with words, but actions to back them up, to think about being loved and how that looks, God and his ways, purpose in life, other "situations" that I'm learning and thinking through, people and their behavior...
And then... I just wanted to talk. LOL~ I was sitting at home, trying to process it and I just wanted to talk it out with a close friend. Someone I trust who will be there for me and genuinely care to listen. And after I did, I felt better. The situation didn't change, the problems/thoughts still exist, but just talking about them out loud made it better.
I know there are different seasons for different things and right now and maybe always, I'll be an external processor... ( =.
Thanks Friend! You're Great! Seriously!
So yes... after that, I got to Seattle to pass out food/gifts/clothing, but ended up helping a dentist do exams. I only gave him the mirror, passed out the goodies (toothpaste, toothbrush, mouth rinse), but it felt SO good to interact with the dentist/patients and talk about dental stuff again. LOL~ I love my profession and I can't wait to get back into work.
Lastly, in the midst of interacting with the homeless (seeing joyful people, grumpy people, some who were drunk, people who were hurting), I began to think. To think about the need in the world, think about the news and the bombings in Africa and how people died on Christmas day, about how important family/good friends are who will REALLY be there for you not just with words, but actions to back them up, to think about being loved and how that looks, God and his ways, purpose in life, other "situations" that I'm learning and thinking through, people and their behavior...
And then... I just wanted to talk. LOL~ I was sitting at home, trying to process it and I just wanted to talk it out with a close friend. Someone I trust who will be there for me and genuinely care to listen. And after I did, I felt better. The situation didn't change, the problems/thoughts still exist, but just talking about them out loud made it better.
I know there are different seasons for different things and right now and maybe always, I'll be an external processor... ( =.
Thanks Friend! You're Great! Seriously!
2 comments:
To talk stuff out is a natural human expression. It helps knowing there is someone who cares to listen to your stuff, and their gift of presence is often overlooked sadly... but glad you got someone who'd be there for you :)
Aww~ thank u! keeping up with my blog eh? I think you're the first comment I've had for a while... I think since I stopped blogging my first time around. LOL~ And yes yes... God knew what I needed and I'm thankful! Thanks for the encouragement!! :D
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