Trucks...the significance they had in my life?!?

On the 2nd day of driving from Memphis to Dallas, I was the 2nd car in a row of 4 and I had to follow closely to PB because I was without a walkie talkie and I didnt want to get lost. I did follow closely at first and we ended up loosing Michelle and Matt, so here is a lovely picture of PB and Ben, as we wait for like 10-15 minutes at a gas station. =D

So, anyhow...after they caught up with us, we were on our way again for a long drive on the freeway. Trees are all around us with a clear sky and because I knew that we were going to be driving for at least an hour before we make another move on the freeway, I began to relax, pop in a Cd that my roommies made for me, reflect upon God and life, and continue to follow PB (but not as closely =).

There are 2 lanes on this highway and we are driving on the left side because we are passing drivers on our right. As we drive by 2 large trucks, the 2nd truck decides to pull infront of me. He didnt have too much room to pull in, but he managed to do so very quickly considering he was a pretty large truck. After he made his move... a few thoughts of irritation crossed my mind with the first being: What the heck does this guy think he's doing? And secondly: That Jerk, he could have waited til I passed him?  And so on...=)

I'm driving behind this truck for a good distance before he passes the first truck and pulls back into the right lane. The whole time I couldn't see ahead of me, because this truck was blocking my view and as I look ahead to see PB, he was a far distance ahead of me. I accelerated to about 95mph to catch up and as I was speeding to get there, I had began thinking about my personal walk with God.

Driving that day reminded my of my Christian walk. My car is me, PB is leading me, Michelle and Matt can talk to PB through the walkie talkie, but they are following me as well, the road is like the journey of my life and the truck is a circumstance/struggle that can occur. I was reminded of a few things, but the one that I was reflecting upon again today was:

::: I have personal relationship with God and He is one that I desire so much to follow, but when I lose focus, it is easy for me to lose that momentum and fall behind. In this case, if I do lose that momentum, circumstances can occur and I can fall behind on the very things that God has in store for my life. The circumstances can come out of anywhere and when they do, if I dont keep my focus on God and know the direction in which he is leading me, I can lose focus because the circumstance will be soo big that it will transfer my focus from God to that very struggle or situation :::

So yes yes, this reflection was exactly 14 days ago, but I am sharing it because God spoke to me that day and reminded me of it today. Before I left AA, I was growing spiritually, I could feel God moving in my life, and honestly there were so many times during the day where I just wanted to sit in front of God and be in his presence.

But, while I was traveling to Austin and even while I've been here, I began to lose that focus. I began to see the circumstances, the feelings of doubt, and myself more than I saw God. And today, he reminded me again that I need to cling to Him. Cling to Him each day and be reminded that Im on a journey and He is my guide and as long as I desire to follow, he will lead me.

I ran tonight after our whole team met together (susan, rachel and toufue were skyped in with us). And it felt soo~o good to just run, to reflect, and reconnect with God.